It’s valentine’s day today and a great day to focus on self love. Loving yourself is often the most difficult person to love. We always look at other people with such awe and amazement, but we look at our own selves with judgement and doubt. Why is it that the one person who knows how hard you work every single day, is the one person who is the hardest on you. We also question what we do, think what if, or if only….. and yet…. If the same observations were being made of a good friend, we’d tell them “it’s ok”, “you did amazing”, “give yourself some grace”.
I won’t hide it, I’m not a huge fan of Valentine’s day. It has a pretty shady past in my life starting with a teenage boyfriend who decided to break up with me on Valentine’s day, not the best day to do it …. just in case you were considering it. To top it off, I’ve had a really shitty week fueled by hate and anger of other people. My anxiety has been through the roof, and I’m definitely not feeling my best self. However, I’m not going to let this negativity take over.
I was recently attacked by a very angry individual. I didn’t do anything other than just be me, but I was attacked over and over again with words of hate pointed towards me and to my fellow yoga teachers at the studio. My back went up, I went into defense mode to try to get this person out of my life. I’m an extremely sensitive person, so things like this will throw me for a pretty big loop. When my anxiety takes over, I lose focus, I start to shake, I typically have breathing issue, and this is just a few things that happen as a result of a personal attack. This was just one of a few things that happened this week to send my nervous system into overdrive. As a result, I’ve been super low energy, lethargic, unable to focus, and all around not feeling very well.
At times like these, I need to remind myself to look around and focus on all of the love around me. Tonight I will teach a yoga class with over 30 people who are choosing to spend their Valentine’s with me. I have an amazing support system of friends who have been messaging me to remind me to not believe the hateful comments that are being tossed at me. I have support of a community who continue to show up and grow my classes to a point where there room is often almost full. I need to stay focused on all of the good instead of the bad.
Rachel Hollis says, “Someone else’s opinion of you is none of your business.” and this is what I’m going to remember. I am who I am. I am strong and proud. I work hard, and I know that not everyone will love me. But… I don’t need them to. I love me. I am truly my own person and as much as I appreciate feedback and will do my best to support those who want it, I can’t put myself in a position to listen to lies and gossip of people who have not right to share it. Your Opinion of Me is None of My Business. However, if you love me, I’m happy to hear it and share it!
On that note, I want to take today to focus on a day of love for all of the people who support and love me. I appreciate my friends who put up with me when I’m not my best. I’m grateful for those who will stand up for me when I need their support. I am thankful to be able to guide and support so many people through yoga and probably through so many other things that I’m sure I don’t even understand.
Not everyone has someone special to spend Valentine’s with. Many people are struggling and hurting. This is the time for us all to come together in community and support our friends. Share love like it’s going out of style. Give it to everyone you can, and if you think you don’t have any left, give a little bit more. The best way to overcome those negative people is to be the best person you can be and share love in the universe.
I am Thankful, Grateful, and Blessed!